dapat PLKN?!?!

My whole life has been a lie...

"kalau kau anak last, pastu adik beradik kau semua tak dapat, mesti kau dapat punya"

inilah ungkapan yang aku dengar sejak darjah 6.

penipu. semua orang penipu.

Let's be honest here, for every 17 year old Malaysian, getting the Acceptance notice that you have been selected for National Service is the second scariest thing next to our SPM results. kan?

My "You have been rejected to National Service" message :D

I was actually disappointed I wasn't chosen.

Like for a split second, the happiness drained out of me, flowed slowly and emotionlessly like the water in a creek before evaporating into oblivion that is the depths of my despair.

pastu teringat yang kena kawad macam gila.

hilang semua rasa kecewa :P

to those yang dapat... my deepest condolensces. stay strong.

haha I kid, I kid. 

Kalau dapat tu memang dah takdir lah, semua aturan tuhan, kan.

kalau tak pergi, masuk penjara.

so pergi je lah.

tak payah lah takut cause think about it, semua orang takut.

no one knows anyone,

the sole fact that humans are social creatures by nature means everyone is going to try really hard to be accepted, liked, wanted, loved(lol) .

pendek kata semua orang akan friendly sebab semua orang nak kawan.

Atiyah and Shamirah dapat!

korang jangan lah sedih.

boleh cari boyfriend kat PLKN!

just jangan mengandung

I mean, boleh mengandung, 

tapi nikah lah dulu.

masa ambil result SPM nanti, korang bersalin hahahaha

sorry, saya rasa lawak.'

I find my immature mind very entertaining.

I mean, Shane Dawson calls Instagram "Instamammogram"

and I was like "holy hell that's hilarious as f"

yeah, see how my sense of humor can get sometimes?

P/S to Atiyah: mammogram is a breast examination. :D

run!

Is it just me, or am I the only one who's just never thirsty while fasting?
This comes off really odd to me because I drink like a horse.

The other day I was really debating whether to go jogging because I was scared I would lose so much water then die and shrivel up at the side of the road,
but I wet jogging anyway, and thankfully I didn't die (physically nor mentally)
and I jogged with weights for extra resistance cause I'm a badass PLAYA

The day after that, I ran for 3km on an incline of 10% for 20 minutes and still felt great.
As a fat teenage girl with the energy of...well, a fat teenage girl :D I was pleasantly surprised my body could perform that well without consuming any food or water within the past 13 hours.

It's the 15th day of fasting (out of 30 days) and I'm still getting hunger pangs at those times when I would be usually stuffing something in my mouth.
but I read somewhere that your body takes 21 days to adapt to something new (I dunno if that's true) so we'll just wait and see.

moral of the story: If I can exercise during the fasting month and not die, so can you!

First day puasa!!

Assalamualaikum.
yay first day puasa!
I don't feel tired at all. In contrast, I actually feel pretty pumped.
So I woke up in the morning  and drank 1 cup of water,
went downstairs and had 1/2 a grapefruit.
had a plate of brown rice with fried egg and soy sauce (My family's must-have for sahur)

11 hours later of eating nothing and I'm feelin' great.
like I'm invincible and could split boulders, divide seas, walk on fire and split atoms with my bare hands.

My goal is to lose another 7kg this month.
I'm gonna get some help from my best friend.
his name?

"Brown Rice"

Honestly I don't think I would have ever lost the 20 kg's without brown rice.
I keep telling my family

"STOP! white rice is killing ya! spiking your blood sugar levels and causing diabetes! switch to brown rice!"

they just don't wanna.
I guess its hard to teach an old dog new tricks.

So yeah I'm the only person in the family that eats brown rice.
I have to cook up a batch of brown rice for myself, divide them and store them in freezer bags.
sometimes I get too compulsive though,
like I've gotta weigh out precisely 200.25g of rice in each bag.
I get paranoid if it weighs more then that.
Early signs of an eating disorder maybe? I dunno.

This will only last me a week or so :O

as far as taste goes, it has a mild earthy flavour and the texture is different depending on how you cook it.

break-fast is in another hour or so.
gonna go now.

jangan ponteng puasa, Allah nampak!
:D