Racism :(

This is he saddest thing I've ever seen really :'(

pause music at right sidebar -->

watch at 1:41 at the back, made me cry :'(

This lady was then arrested HOORAY :D

But if you only have love for your own race,

Then you only leave space to discriminate.

And to discriminate only generates hate.
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate.

Madness is what you demonstrate,
And that's exactly how anger works and operates.

Man, you got to have love just to set it straight,

Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love y'all

Notice the child the woman is holding?
"Mother of the year you're NOT"

Isn't this sad?

I feel so blessed to be a Malaysian.
When theres a holiday celebrated by another race, the whole of Malaysia gets a holiday. 
We get school off in deepavali, chinese new year and eid.

Why must there be colours to seperate us?
Well, I guess "semangat kesukanan" has something to do with it...

but Why can't we all be Hufflepuffs??

HIDAYAH WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

Well you see, In Harry Potter..

Slytherine house is for the Evil ones and purebloods.
Gryffindor is for the brave
Ravenclaw is for the Smart ones
and hufflepuff takes the Rest.

You get what I'm sayin'?

Chinese people seem to be the smartest one out there.
Judith Tan for example: in standard 5 she took her "anugerah kecemerlangan"
like shes sooo used to it ;P haha
They are also undeniably cute.
 Just look at Goon Mun Min.

The Indians on the other hand are the most funniest ones.
I bet Kavietha is all grown up now :')
and Kartini is her usual Hysterical self
even if I don't see you guys anymore..
I know... hahaha

See? why can't we be friends? why can't we all just get along?

Baby Ben :)

Back in England, I used to have this friend.
I don't remembe her name :(

Because my mum was still studying and my dad was working,
They would send me to a babysitter which was my friend's mum.

Let's pretend my friend's name is "Hailey"

So, the memory I remeber the most in England was when my mum dropped me off at Hailey's house.

ok, this is how I remeber it COMPLETELY from my brain. here goes:

I get out of the car, I run into Hailey's house, I saw baby Ben in his cot, Hailey was beside me, we go out the back door, we wear our boots (the one Paddington bear wears) mine was yellow, hers was red and.....

my memory ends there.
I think it was autumn???

oh, Baby Ben was her litte brother. Named him after Big Ben I suppose.
awww he was da tudest ting eva.
yeaaa, gotta stop talking like that.

Anyway, one of my BIGGEST dreams is to move back to England.
Visit my old home called "Summertown house" in Oxford
study in Oxford university like my mum.
Own a horse.
haha

Tadaa, I found a picture of my house, or rather flat?

It was England! we couldn't afford a proper home. The difference in currency between Malaysian Ringgit and pounds is just WOW.



I.AM.EQUESTRIAN

Well, I'm not an equestrian yet..
I won't consider myself one until I enter competitions.
Same goes to football players.
Even if you LOVE football,
you don't go around saying:
"I'm a football player"
right? I think..

anyway, due to my obsessive habit of watching horse videos on youtube,
They (youtube) added this segment on my youtube page every time I log in called:
 "Equestrianism"

coincidencely (malas nak check spelling) someone.. adalah orang tu..
said that horse riding is easy, and all you do is sit on their backs.
HEELL NOO,

So, watch this video.
Oh before that, pause the music player first at the side -->

Wasn't that super intense?

I mean, the music is just wow..

My conclusion is, Equestrianism is not easy.

(yeah I think you got my point)

20 people die each year. Last year two 14 year olds died.

So Hidayah, you know its dangerous, so why still go ahead with it?

Simple, because of passion. For love towards horses.

People die from playing football too,

Mostly from cardiac arrest,

but you still play right?

Before saying horse riding is easy, ask yourself:

Would you trust an animal 10 times your size with your life?

Would you run full speed into a solid obstacle?

Would you risk your life for a sport?

I don't really know the name of this dude is. I just snapped snapped snapped pictures away :P

Takdir :)

I went out  to eat dinner with my friends today.

and guess what?

He was there

The most handsome, nicest, sweetest, smartest, talented guy was there...

I was out with Fatin, Syaheerah and Qistina.
at a restaurant (name cannot be mentioned)
Saja, nak cakap-cakap sebab lama tak jumpa.
We then talked about how awesome it would be if he was there and

BAM!

He came in..

jantungku berdegup pantas..
oh, silap bahasa
My heart was beating so fast I was scared it might rip.
cold sweat trickled down my spine, the atmosphere suddenly chilly,
somewhat death-like as if the grim reaper was standing
behind me waiting to cover me in darkness with his thick black cloak.
the rotten smell of grief and guilt filled my lugs causing me to choke...

ok sudah..terlebih pulak.

Also, Fatin jatuh cinta dengan a waiter.
Sebenarnya, saya yang nampak dulu tapi takpelah...bagi Fatin

JADI BAPAK KEPADA ANAK-ANAK AKU
Hahah.. mungkin anda takkan faham.
takpe, tak penting -_-

anyway, we ate and went to MyDin.
Qistina nak beli kentang and ayam nak masak sup.
Then we came in the restaurant again.
Fatin nak beli cake.
Saya pun mengambil kesempatan "melihat" ;P

Akhirnya, Syaheerah pun balik so we waited outside the restaurant.
I was playing with a kitty that showed up
while wishing like mad he would come out cause I wanna see him :)

He and his friend (Jimmy Neutron) finally came out.
I 'kononnya' looked around.
(GOSH, I AM SUCH A STALKER)

What happened next, I don't want to tell anybody
because I think its just something I rather keep to
myself instead,
you know?
just something personal only I want to remember :D

Then I went home.
leaving Qistina all alone.
hahaha

Gosh, do you think he knows?
I think he does :(

I don't want him to know.
I don't ever want him to know.
well maybe not forever,
but just not now.
Maybe I'll tell him when I'm 25 and he'll be 27
hahah

Oh, and I also heard him curse.
(I think it was him)
 he said the "F" word.
That was the cutest curse in the ENTIRE WORLD!

But can you imagine,
me and my friends haven't seen each other since 11.11.11
I haven't seen him since 11.11.11 either.
and suddenly today,
the same place, the same date, same time, I see him?
Coincidence??
 Maybe there is no such thing as coincidences.
who knows

Thats why the name of this post is "Takdir"
Qistina said: "Mungkin Allah bagi kau chance last untuk tengok dia?"

Maybe it was.
Goodbye Jco.

I am  now reading the very first(and last) thing you ever said to me
I just want to say:
"au revoir"

Good luck in you're SPM

yours truly,
Hdyh

bear wrestler

For the past few days, this is my situation:

1) "Oh look its 3p.m"

a few hours pass by,

2) "Ooh, it's night time"

a few hours past,

3) repeat  to no.1

Theres just nothing to do

On tuesday was the first time I went for horse riding lessons at night.
The instructor was super super nice. Not too nice where it gets creepy ;)
anyway, I learnt the sitting trot. I LOVE THE SITTING TROT!!!

Before that, we were in the 'lunging paddock',
a circle piece of land with fences

lebih kurang macam ni.

the instructor left sekejap nak ambil barang.
so there I was, ontop of this big horse. alone.
you had no idea how it felt...

IT WAS AWESOME

It was like a dream come true.
MasyaAllah, it felt like my dreams were fulfilled.
like nothing else in the world matters.

peliknya saya ni...

"eeh budak ni, duduk atas kuda pun seronok?"

eh, tak! bukannya saya tak pernah duduk atas kuda.
tapi masa tu tengah malam.
everything was so calm,
there was nobody close by.
It was just me, and the horse (the horses' name is Bukit Jelutong)
the horse could somehow lose control, throw me off and kill me

hey, they dont call it the second most dangrous sport for nothin'

but I didn't care. For a girl who'se been wanting horse riding lessons since she was seven, nothing cared.

Get back up!

Beforehand I must apologize. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
Because... I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
This is gonna be about horses :)

(tukar bahasa ke BM kerana itulah yg kerajaan mahukan)

Hari ini saya seperti biasa telah pergi ke Denai Alam Riding Club.
Saya belajar "trotting" lagi kerana saya masih belum mahir dalam "posting" (menaikkan badan dari kuda)
Saya tak ingat apa-apa seketika. sekejap ya.. beri saya ingat...
ok dah ingat dah. Begini, trainer saya sedang memarahi kuda itu kerana dia tidak mahu mengikut arahannya
kemudian, kuda itu mula prance sedikit (seperti logo kereta Ferrari tu)
Saya kemudian tak balance dan jatuh. nah, sudah pun saya lukis di "paint"

Notice the change of facial expression in the second picture?

I fell  forward while hugging Radar's neck (Radar is the name of the horsy)

Honestly, bukannya teruk pun.

Quite fun actually, I mean COME ON first time falling of a horse deserves to be blogged about right?

If only it was caught on tape. that would be awesome!

Right now, I feel like Harry Potter in the second book. Read the very first chapters. you'll seize to understand.

byebye



Update

Dear Jco,

(Well, since I'm not gonna be seeing him anymore, why not dedicate my entire blog to him eh?)
anyway, Hi Jco, I hope you're fine. You're sitting your SPM examinations now. well, good luck then :)
On the last day of school, when the form 5's came out for recess, I was, as usual, staring looking at you. >:)

You walked past our stall a couple of times. I screamed in my heart.
yeah, no, I'm kidding, I screamed out loud. :O

Then, when it was time to go home, I saw you again with you're "clique" (lol. I never knew boys had cliques)
anyway, I was the usual crushing-on-you-stalker just looking at you intently when you looked back

I didn't want to perasan and cause I'm soo rabun, I whispered to Mimi

"Mimi, Jco tengah pandang ke?"

Then Mimi looked over at you and said to me:

"aah, dia tengah pandang"

Then we burst out laughing as if it were the normal-est thing ever.

sincerely,
Hdyh

Ok, so what did I do the ENTIRE day?

wake up at 7 because I was scared Pn.Radziah was coming to mintak tolong
with some work. (she didn't come)

mandi.

ate breakfast

Played Piano. I played "Frolic in velocity" a couple hundred times.

Youtube. Watched: "Charlie Sheen interview"

Fmylife.com.

GoPetition.com: wanted to sign a petition to get the "Kardashians" off of tv :)

Found out that the chicken came first. not the egg.

Browsed photos of Gypsy Vanner horses. (I'm such a  horse geek)

layed in bed and thought of Harry Potter.

Went Jogging. Distance: 2.4km :D

played piano AGAIN. this time, I tried Habenara from "Carmen"
Its supposed to sound like this::

 Mine sounded like poop :(

Well, gotta run.
byebye

el final

Yesterday on the 11/11/11, (such a pretty date)
School ended :(
No more 3 Beta.
No more PMR
No more Ust Azka

We had a carnival thingy and we sold maggie cup, green syrup and agar-agar.
buisness was slow. REAL slow.
Maggie cup was the only thing that sold out though :D

 First customer :)

our money :D

Mimi and Atiyah then came to my house to watch Al-Hijab.

They posed with the chickens :)

Then, we used the money we earned at the carnival for a class party at KFC :)

ok yea, I put this picture of ATiyah with her mouth wide opened for trolling purposes :)

This is the video I took (well, mostly Faiz took) of us at KFC. At the beginning I'm sitting in a corner because they were getting the cakes ready for a "suprise" birthday party. I was so "suprised" lol.

happy birthday to me, Atiyah and Hariz :D

Also, I had horse riding lessons today. I learnt how to canter (kinda like jogging, but for horses).

Pagi tadi hujan so eventhough I was on a horse 17H high ("Hands" the unit to measure a horses height. yes, you use your hands), my shoes and trouses were wet as if I ran on foot.  I didn't know what the name of the horse I was riding though.

Oh, I also played with Dong today. Dong is my favourite horse :))

Isn't he pretty? alolololo

Falling in love

Yesterday, I fell in love.
This love story will be slightly different though.
When I looked into his eyes, It was like looking into clear water.
so calm, so beautiful.
I'm meeting him once a week,
where I'll talk to him about my life.
And he'll whisper back.
A whisper only I can hear.
That day,my dad called me because it was time to leave
I looked back, and he was looking right back at me
I felt like crying.
I didn't want to leave him.
That's how I know its love :)

Yes, dear friends, the boy I am talking about is not a boy at all.
It's a horse.

Me, mum, abah and my sister was at Denai Alam Recreational Centre (DARC).
I went to sign up for horse riding lessons.
Because my mom was previously a vet, she wanted to have a look at the conditions of the horses.
and she was satisfied, I would say.
It was clean, no smell of manure at all and the horses were in a 5star stable siap dengan kipas lagi.

I then walked along, and I saw this horse.
I made a clicking sound with my tounge to get the horses attention as my mum had taught me,
He immediately stuck his head out from the "pagar"

Mum then told me to talk to him.
Me, not knowing what to say said:
"Hey, hey boy. How are you, you're a pretty horse you know that? I'm Hidayah"
(EXACT WORDS)

Then I started stroking his nose.
He was so still, like I said earlier,still water.
Before I know it I was all over him :)
both my hands were patting him.
One hand bushing his long hair, the other continosly stroking his shoulder.
Then abah called, nak beli barang sebab esoknya raya.
So I did, I looked back and he was still staring at me
kinda like saying: "but where are you going, are you going to come back?"

Seriously, there was just a moment there.
a connection. A click. chemistry. you know?
I didn't see his name though..

I said out loud "I'll be back soon, don't worry"

My sister sighed. (she doesn't  understand love)
Theres just something about girls and horses.
Most of 'em are scared.
The other fraction, like me, *kening kening
meeting them ts a dream come true.

He's one of the horses below.
He's brown by the way.
Theres a horse with the name "Bukit Jelutong" down there. cool :D
The other day I rode on Dong, His colour is really awesome.
(tengoklah kat bawah)

P/S: gelding is male, mare is female :))