Its not his fault..

Two days ago on sturday, I exerienced my 2nd fall.
I was cantering with my friend, he was on  Francesco
and me on shahrukh (again).

you see, I have this problem that I honestly think alot of riders have and that is:
not putting enough weight on the heels.
so at one point, my leg accidently came out of the stirrup (with shah rukh still cantering)
I lost my balance, and fell forwards.

I landed on my waist and arm. The pain was excruciatingly painful.
since before I hit the ground, my eyes were closed and they still were after the impact.
I was gripping the sand with my hand trying to tahan sakit.
Ya Allah, sakit yang teramat-amat.
masa buka mata, boleh nampak Shah Rukh dekat hujung arena staring at me.

My trainer rushed to me and asked me where I felt hurt, aked if I was ok, and asked me how I fell

"dia silap lead ke?" -basically implying it was shah rukh's fault.

I was way too exhausted and I was aching everywhere to answer so I just geleng kepala.

then my mum asked how I fell "laa, macam mana boleh jatuh, kuda tu laju sangat ke?"

no mum, when a rider falls, its 98% the riders fault.
It was all my fault.  I still have imperfections I need to polish and screw up before I become the next Stay Westfall lol.

sorry Shah rukh, I accidently fell on your neck and spooked you. I love you big boy!

my first crush

Ok, so I had my first crush when I was like, 11.

The guy was 3 years older. (Im attracted to older guys :0  )

He was the grandson of my ustazah who taught me

mengaji.

I once saw him wearing only a towel,

and I swear that was the day I got my period. lol

Im kidding.

I also went into his room once.

but only because his little brother told me too.

I didn't see any porn....probably stashed under the bed.

but he had cassettes and cd's of, you guessed it..

AUDIOSLAVE! 

(And so my obsession with the band began)

I don't know why but everytime I saw him, he was half naked. 

haha, dia sengaja je kan! 

Like when we were playing baseball in one court ( yes we played baseball in a tennis court) and he would be in the court next to us playing sepak takraw, he was always shirtless.

but of course on occassions like gatherings where my mum invited his family over,

he would remember to put something on.

haha

oh Arif, I hope you read this someday.

but I'm sure no one of the opposite gender reads my blog.

unless Atiyah counts as a man..sebenarnya...

lol, inside joke. 

Add maths. yaay....

for some reason, it feels like im having my period for the first time.
I don`t know WHY... it just DOES. weird, I know.

we had two papers today: add maths 1 and 2. (heaven, right?)
I failed both. lol..baru buat dah fail dah :/
For the spare half an hour I had after trying to answer all the questions,
I daydreamed.
I daydreamed about big giant cockroaches coming through the window,
daydreamed about a puchong standing behind Atiyah's back and telling her the answers,
daydreamed about that really tall guy I only meet twice a week.
p/s: siapa tak nak bela puchong kan? Atiyah you lucky gal!

Then Sarah kena marah dengan cikgu because she was "playing" with her correction tape.

just two more days!!
langkawi baby here I come :D

Big things!

So, alot of big things happened and are happening
Our school did the whole citrawarna thing.
didn't watch it on tv though! sorry guys, I'm sure our school was awesome!!
Most of my bestfriends were in it: Qistina, Natasha, Nadhihah, Atiyah and Sarah.
*Sarah was really pretty awwww
Ok, to be completely honest.... I didn't enter citrawarna because of two reasons

1. I absolutely hate dancing like seriously, if you ever tell me to dance I will kill you.
2. I'll have to cancel Horse riding lessons!
(Sorry, I'll pick horses over being on tv anytime!)

which brings me to my next "big thing"
I officially cantered today!

I'm gonna die because I'm so happy!!
8 months I waited... 8 FREAKING MONTHS!

My coach brought me to the lunging paddock and said:
"ok, you've tried before. Let's see you do it now. FOR REAL"

I was so focused!
in my head:

 " ok, watch your legs Hidayah.Rise to the trot.  Now check your diagonal, pull your outside rein, heels down, look infront, don't pull on the reins, now *kick and CANTER!! swooping motions Hidayah, sit deeply in the saddle, eyes in front, right leg kick, if he stops, keep on asking him to continue, heels down! Yes Hidayah! YES! YOU'RE DOING IT! ALHAMDULILLAH!!"

Pastu he asked me if I could practice on my own because he wanted to teach two other guys.
and I pulun-pulun ShahRukh to canter. (betul kah frasa ini?)

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mesti dia dah penat dah dengar me jerit in his ears: "canter shahrukh! canter!"


Goodboy Shahrukh, goodboy!

Sexual assaults

So, I watched a pretty awesome movie today called TRUST.

Its about a 14 year old girl who met a guy online.

They became friends, changed numbers and they met finally met...at a motel..

You can guess what happened next.

The girl claims that she wasn't raped. 

Although being a minor and it basically falls into statutory rape.

last-last the guy that she said "loved her" had a few other girls (one aged 12) which he "loved" too.

Being in form 4, we studied a poem called: He had such quite eyes.

I applaud the government for that.

Although me and Atiyah did scorn at the line "pleasure seeking guys"

lol.