Changing (non-puberty related)

"Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same"
-keane

Yesterday we went to Hariz's BBQ.
at the end when we were going home,
after taking a few last photos,
He gave us (Mimi, Atiyah, Qis and me) a little speech.
some of the words were:
"thank you so much, you guys have been a big impact in my life"
we were all silent, because we were sad.
This may be the last time we see each other.

He was an awesome dude.
*lol, I said "was" as if he's dead :D
He's been our classmate for 3 years
we attended all his open houses since form 1.
(his 'Raya' open house was the first, to be exact)
and EVERYONE is gonna miss him.
Bye bye Hariz, see you on the flip side.

On a happier note,
I didn't do a single flippin' homework.
YAY PROCRASTINATION
YAY ELEVENTH HOUR
ALL HAIL HIDAYAH
WOOOH
yeah, that wasn't something to be happy about..

also, I'm afraid my bird may be suffering from aspiration pneumonia.
:(

hmmm... I need to write about something "happy"

howabout something equestrian related?
well today, I was bringing Dibby
 (yes, the horse over there. scroll down and you'll see her pic-->)
out of her stable. Then this guy took out Lateefa (devil horse).
I said to him "good luck, you'll probably die riding her"
and he did 0_o
he fractured his bone in numerous places
He suffered from internal bleeding and
I'm kidding. sheesh..talk about being gullible :/

Baby Oliver:)

2 days ago

Today

dah bye.
oh, before I forget..
HELL YEAH I LIKE WAFFLES

R U JELLY?

My best friends know that I'm an animal freak.
you know, saying the word "freak" makes me wanna scream;
MIND FREAK MIND FREAK
hahaha

anyway, Let me introduce you to this little boy.
His name is Oliver. "Ollie" for short.
He is a month old. His life span is 15 years.
He is unweaned, meaning I have to feed him his baby food with a syringe.
I love him to pieces.

 with his little friend :D

Oliver is a lovebird.
a type of parrot originating from Africa.
I purchased him from a breeder in Terengganu.
kesian dia, 5 hours in a bus all alone to Selangor :(
when he's all grown up, he'll look alot like this:

My little baby parrot now :)

and here's a photo of 3 Beta's reunion. 

I stole this from Atiyah's blog.

I don't do photos, cause I suck miserably at photography.

I'm more of a video person ;)

Goodbye 3 Beta. Goodbye Hariz. Goodbya Irfan. Goodbye Zul. Goodbye Syahmee.

 Goodbye Ust.Azka.

:(

The sims 3: part 2

*sigh

the sims,

its where all the crazy stuff happens.

This is the first time I'm playing it this year and I thought,

why not make a checkered white and red house?

 should've zoomed in :/

 haha, I just realised there's a door in mid-air. oh well..

 living room

 I thought "why not put a rock in the middle of a pool?"

 checkered chairs. Happy Chinese New year!!!

 kitchen

 bedroom

 The owner of the house: Elizabeth Norton.

Her lifetime wish is to become an artist. how cute :)

 See you on the flip side :D



Hello Jco

I haven't written about Jco for quite some time now.
Amazing what time does.
drains every singe memory out of ya'.
except the ones too meaningful to discard.


Dear Jco,
Hello, how are you?
I'm fine. I hope you're swell.
I saw you a few times this year
but not fully.
you were always behind some massive object
that divides the two of us.
ok, that sounded less chessier in my head.
well, that's it.
Wish you the best. Hope we meet soon
we will always be under the same sky
so its not wrong or crazy to dream of meeting you 'rite?
haha, I'm such a stalker. but who cares.
just know, I'm waiting.

sincerely,
hdyh

Say Hello!

Tomorrow, on the 24th of January 2012,
My baby is arriving.

what..didn't I tell you?
I'm pregnant..

haha, lol. no....
 that was a joke.
I'll tell you the whole story tomorrow.

cliff hangovers.
*wooosh

Devil Horse

Today, I rode a devil.
Its name?
 Lateefa.

Before the lesson, my instructor warned me:
"Lateefa is VERY fast. Make sure you hold onto the reins tightly!"

He wasn't kidding....

Don't get me wrong, I LOVE her. She's just too advanced for me.

We were group training (is that what you call it?)
and this girl infront of me who was riding Shahrukh,
was trotting at a normal speed.
I was behind her and Lateefa was just so keen on passing her and being first.
She wanted to beat all the other horses.
big bully :O

her trot was like the wind.
That's right. They should of called her wind.
Everytime she trots too fast, my instructor will yell:
"Hidayah, slow your horse!"
So I pull the reins until my jari nak putus.
but she doesn't respond.

siting trot lagilah FAIL.

Afterwards I gave her a bath
(this is the first time I ever gave a horse a bath)
You can tell she seriously loved it.

*sigh
Oh Lateefa, the girl that likes to impress :)

-why did I?-

Damn SOPA,
I couldn't do my research on pornography.
yes, I'm a pervert.

you see, my english teacher wrote down a list of subjects for public speaking.
and there was one that caught my attention:
47.Pornography.
There was this voice in me forcing me to put up my hand and say
"number 47"
When I told Shairah, her literal words were:
"what the f..."
Now you see, this voice that was telling me to do what I did belonged to a fellow friend.

flashback time..
it was 2010, in form 2.
we had to carve a block of wood for art class.
I drew a very complicated sketch of how I wanted to carve mine.
I asked my friend "Do you think this is too hard?"
He said: "Yeah but, I like a challenge"
this kind of struck me, because someone said something similar earlier.
only it was:
"Do the craziest things Hidayah. Take challenges. Do things people normally wouldn't do. Later in life you would be disappointed in the things that you didn't do, then things that you did do"

and thats how I chose "pornography" as my public speaking subject.

sitting trot win

I was just browsing youtube when I came across this video

my literal expression:

"that is so perfect! how did she do that!?"

TEACH ME 0_0

I am absolutely horrible at the sitting trot.

My instructors are always yelling "heels down!"

and in my head I'm like: "pfft..lke that helps"

and then I continue bumping like a total idiot.

But ,

the last time I rode, which was like, 3 days ago

My instructor yelled what I feared the most:

"attention rider and.....sitting trot"

lebih kurang cam kawad lah :)

so, I sat and at first I tried to hug the horses' belly with my legs,

which obviously didn't work -_-

 then I did something magical...

I followed the rythm of the horse and let my pelvis absorb the shock

voila, it worked :)

then my instructor told me to continue the sitting trot with my legs

 out of the stirrups

This was so exciting for me that I was smiling grinning.

my expression then:

my instructor noticed and this was his response:

"kenapa gembira sangat tu? esok nak kahwin ke?"

ya

where's the Wonder drug?

I'm so sick, that I just had to sweat. so,
Imagine, after jogging for an hour straight,
 you can't drink anything cold.
because you have a sore throat.
but you want to so badly!
and so you drink it anyway.
Then you feel tired and dizzy,
You cough non stop.,
Your throat is irritating the crap out of you,
and because your body is so hot, when something cold touches you,
you spasm in shock, and your spine tingles.
your nose is blocked,
 you can't taste anything,
you try to sleep but you can't breathe.
And to top it all off,
Tomorrow is a monday :)

Mothers

These are the ways my mum wakes me up in the mornings:

1.she'll sing; "Wake up Gromit, time for wakey-wakey".
and she'll sing that infront of my door until I go crazy

2." Hidayah! its already 9 am!! wake up!"
*looks at clock

3. knocks door endlessly.

"knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock, knock"

Now, the reason why I wrote about my mum, was because one of my best friends' mum will be away for

6 months!! and only be back on weekends!!

Qsitina is not the type of person who is tough.

She breaks down and cries whenever something sad happens.

Like this one time I was randomly telling her about me and Jco,

how I would wait for him for a thousand years.

and She cried. I laughed.

Yet, thats the complete reason why I envy her.

She's so soft, like a marshmallow, like a rose petal

I'm as hard as cement.

I remember when my mum would go around the world for work and leave me behind.

I cried like crazy.

One time, when I was 5, she went to Japan for 3 weeks,

I thought to myself "ma, kenapa tak bawak Hidayah sekali?"

and at night, I would gather all her clothes and hug them.

Oh god, I'm gonna cry :'(

As I'm typing this, its been two days since I  last saw her.

So Qistina,

Aku tau kau teramatlah sedih,

and aku tau yang kemungkinan setiap hari aku akan nampak kau menangis.

Tapi kitorang kena bersyukur yang mak kitorang ada lagi.

Walaupun taklah sampai 6 bulan,

tapi aku dapat rasa apa yang kau rasa.

kau kan tau,

yang mak aku selalu balik lambat.

ada sekali ni, pukul 1pagi baru dia balik.

aku selalu terbayang macam mana,

kalau satu malam,

dia tak balik.

kalau dia tak balik selama-lamanya.

So jom kita berdoa kepada Allah,

untuk panjangkan umur diorang.

aku akan sentiasa doakan Qistina dan mama Qistina :)

dah, jangan nangis dah.

p/s: kan best kalau dalam 20 tahun, kau bagi anak-anak kau baca blog ni?

conversations

I'm nearly always having conversations with myself.
I guess its because I'm THAT bored.
I literally have no one to talk to.
My parents are rarely home.
My sisters are only here on weekends,
and I'm sure Katrina, Mars and Firefly (my cat, fish and bird)
 are tired of my babbling.

Omegle.com is also getting boring.
What with obsessive gender hunting ends up with me having to be submissive;
I'm pretty sure I've been a guy, a homosexual and a Jamaican :/
I swear, If I see another "asl" ever again,
I'll drink a whole bottle of ketchup.

also, eventhough I only turned 15 a month ago,
I feel old.
I mean, I don't know how my childish acts will ever get used to being a "grown up"

we are supposed to know what we want to be ALREADY??

shhh!!!.....I'm listening to the guiitar solo from "the seven nation army"
its   so   beautiful..

Prom king and queen

This is just something I felt like sharing.

Here are a few of my celebrity childhood crushes :D

Jonathan Brandis

 from: "IT" and "ladybugs"

He commited suicide in 2003

Benjamin Rojas

from: "Chiquititas" and "rebelde way"

Frankie Muniz

From: Really? You don't know? come on...

And of course, here are the most prettiest actresses (in my opinion)

Anna Sophia Robb

Bridge to Terabithia, Race to witch mountain, Charlie and the chocolate factory.

saoirse Ronan

The Lovely Bones

Gosh, look at her eyes :O

Lusiana Lopilato

"chiquititas" and "rebelde way"

dated Benjamin Rojas and is now married to Michael Buble,

the guy who invented swag :)

Ooooh! I can hear my bird munching on his seeds  :)

I HATE SCHOOL

I really HATE school now.
For reasons, I can't explain.
I loved school last year, but NEWSFLASH..
it ended.

see? I can't even write things properly anymore.
School has sucked every single brain cell out of me.
and because of stress,
I'm pretty sure pimples are gonna pop out any second..
Oh, Speak of the devil, here they are now!!

I got a bird today.
I'm too lazy to post much about him/her right now.
God, I feel so depressed..
the worst part is, I'm not really sure why..

You know how they say that writing about your feelings will make you feel better,
well, it just made me feel a whole lot worse.

I'm looking at the Malaysian national calendar,
counting the days to the chinese new year holidays.
I thought it was next week, turns out it was 2 weeks away..

but then I thought,
shut up Hidayah. Be grateful.

Thanks Nick Vujicic. I hope I can be as tough as you :')

accepting change

Today is the first day of school.
Its been around 2 months and now, its time to get back :/

So, I'm in 4 Beta with Syaheerah, Fatin and Qistina
while Mimi, Shamirah, Afiqah, Nadhihah and Atiyah are in a diffrent class.
Remember when I said I dont like change, well..I still don't like it.
Well actually, I hate it.

Sure, they tell me to change for the better good, I mean..
Study harder, you're 16, and your future lies in the length of this and next year.
But it aint that easy.
Anyway, we cant be together forever right?
but it sure sucks :)

I don't even recognize half the people in my class!
I'm like "budak baru ke ni?"

meh, thats the point anyway,
you know...to make friends?

PMR present :)

Finally, I've got my present!!
TADAA!

A brand new Toyota Innova!!

No lah, haha.

This is a present my parents bought for themselves.

MY present, is waay cheaper :)

Drum roll please!!!!

riding boots :)

 gloves :)

helmet!

Half chaps



and of course, because everything was so black, I had to add some colour splash,

whats better than a red whip eh?



even a random stranger said: "cantik whip"

oh thank you, thank you :))

It all costs RM815.

RM100 for every "A"

I honestly think that its better than an iPhone, a DSLR, or a fish..

Its much worth it too. I mean, these last for many-many years.

If I had an iPhone and the 5th generation comes out next year,

its byebye Siri.

I had lessons just now and there were times when the instructor was busy talking to someone,

I would sing to the horse while we were running:

"Para-para-paradise, everytime she closed her eyes"

and sometimes I would talk to him:

"thats a good boy! whos a good boy? you are!"

and I've gotten so much better too!

my instructor was saying repeatedly:

good! excellent! very good Hidayah!

Then after I got off the horse, the instructor said:

"You've progressed alot!"

oh stop ;)

Then, I realised that I was wearing my half chaps terbalik the whole time! hahaha

Its happening again.

I was craving to hear Marchin On by One republic.
So i searched on youtube and found a video on that song.
There it was:

I started reading the comments, and I started to cry.

It dawned on me that, no matter how long I go without reading the books or watching the movies,

It somehow always finds its way to me.

no, you wouldn't understand.

I'm getting all emotional now, thanks period.