I'm a star!

So, Mimi left for boarding school.
how could you!!
haha, its ok.
 we're still sad and its awkward seeing Syaheerah without you by her side but,
If it makes you happy, we're happy.

Well, I'm happy to tell you that,
tomorrow is the last paper of our finals.
Then we have 2 months of pure sweet holidays.
We're going to Sabah and dad just bought me a new Nikon coolpix510 camera.
sorry, I just had to boast.

We didn't really have a camera and all this time we've been snapping family vacation photos with our handphones. sad.
but the effects on this camera are so cool, even a blind man could use it.
No seriously, my dad's blind friend has the same camera....
....don't....ask......

before I forget,
Misheard words of the week:

Sarah: diorang banyak taraf
Qistina: banyak berak?

Sarah: Amar makruf nahi mungkar chapter berapa
Qistina: running man?

Qistina, selama ni macam mana kau dengar cikgu explain kat depan?
dahlah tahun depan SPM!! haha


I was watching a video when....wait a minute....
DUDE!
I am subconsiously in this video!!


lol, sorry for making your making your video horrible with my presence, person who uploaded this video :)

me at 1:55

Goodbye, Ollie

Today is probably one of the worst days of my life.

I came home today to be told that Ollie has flown away.

My first response was to cry.

I cried so hard I couldn't see where i was going.

I too off my boots, put on slippers and ran outside calling his name.

We didn't find him.

Ya Allah kau berilah dia rezeki dan perlindungan.

Aku terlalu sayangkan dia.

I can't look at his pictures cause I'll cry.

I handfed him myself ever since he was a baby.

I taught him how to fly.

He always screamed when I left the room.

He would tweet when I called his name.

We were so attatched to each other.

Tapi inilah ujian Allah. 

dan mesti ada sebab di belakang semua yang berlaku.

Be Free Ollie, I love you

Cara orang melayu berfikir

Ok, one thing I realised in my daily life of living in Malaysia is the constant (and I mean constant) amount of stereotypes we have.

Bangla tu gay, indon ni pencuri, orang nepal ini, orang Myanmar itu....

padahal, most the foreign workers that I know are really nice!

an indonesian man help build our house. now he has his own house a block away from us and has a daughter. nama dia Sara. manja gila -_-

One Myanmar-ian(?) man I know just became a grandfather!
He's one of the sweetest man ever. He was the first person who ever said my riding was good.

A bangladeshi man at the hospital where my father gets treated for cancer was nearly in tears when my mum handed him RM2 for helping us find a parking spot.
he was bowing at my mum with both his hands clapsed at his forehead with gratefulness.
Did I mention it was blazing hot, and there he was helping people find parking spaces.

So why with all this hate?


Kata satu Malaysia?
I thought accepting other people was our main value of being Malaysian.
shouldn't that atleast be the only value we Malaysians should possess? :/


Why not think that maybe that man who you thought was trying to hit on you just wanted to ask you something. that maybe he has a wife and children at home.

Jangan nak kata orang lain jahat.
orang melayu semua baik ke?

have a sense of realisation that they're doing the work that a normal Malaysian yang "maju" and "advanced" takkan buat, like working at construction sites and petrol stations.

be open minded! don't fall to stupid stereotypes

oh, by the way,
I rocked my chemistry paper just now.
It was fun!

17/21 papers done.
lepas exam, CUTI
lepas cuti, FORM 5. yaaaay?

I can't do this.

I know I want this.
I need this.
This will prove everyone that thought I can't do it.
This will prove everyone what I'm capable of.
This will change everything.

Everyone I see, they're much better than me.
they're stronger, faster, they have unshakable confidence.

then there's me..
I'm scared.

The competition is a month away.
I've got to do this for myself.

I will adapt to overcome.

EDIT:
haha, ok
someone asked me "Hidayah, ni pasal apa?"

well,  I'm gonna take part in an endurance competition.
This will be the very first competition I will ever take part in the field of equestrianism
wish me luck.

p/s: credit to the girl who made this video. This is so inspirational, so beautiful. make's me wanna cry! you go girl!!

speaking swedish

Today was so tiring!

It started out with horse riding lessons.

ooh, I saw Fatin Maisarah!

she was staring at me creepily. haha

after that, we had breakfast at Bonjour cafe at Plaza Jelutong.

2 sandwiches, an apple juice and a bottle of mineral water costs RM 33.

welcome to Bukit Jelutong, everybody.

We then rushed home, showered and got ready for the photo shoot.

My sister just graduated studying TESL and my mum wanted to take this oppurtunity to take "graduation shoots" (or whatever the heck you call them) mum wore her Oxford University robe.

It came with a weird hat that looked like it belonged to Afonso De Albuqurque, seriously. 

google him.

soon we went to Selayang to visit grandma. I was immersed my cousin's "novel melayu" which is completely out of my nature.

after that we went to IKEA, ate meatballs until we couldn't stand (we had to roll all over IKEA), and shopped till we dropped

after IKEA, we went to Jaya Grocer. my feet were killing me.

I did all this while wearing baju kurung (from the photo shoot)

oh, by the way;

SEJARAH TAK SENTUH PUN. MATILAH AKU!

worshipping aliens

The look on my face when I hear stories from people about that guy I don't like:

"so there are plenty of people who hate you too?.. sweet."

misheard word of the day

Me: Asal lah kelas kitorang kat tingkat atas sekali?
Qistina:  nak kahwin?
Me: .........
Qistina: cepatlah cakap! apa kau cakap tadi?
            Tunang?

I realised that next year will be the 5th anniversary of our song "Tunnavalliputisammy"
It's our friendship song :')

yea we're weird.
GOT A PROBLEM WITH THAT, PUNK?
NO? GOOD...

"wanapvayalem hanimunasendo, watahella wanahella pinavalle."

we made the lyrics ourselves and sang it everyday, we remember it until now.
no wonder we don't have many friends...

so if ever, you walk beside us and here us chanting some foreign language that sounds like we're worshiping aliens ,
we are.

haha no.
\heck, maybe we'll teach you the song
and you'll be one of us.

BE ONE OF US!
BE ONE OF US!

stalker mode: enabled

9 papers down.
12 more to go.

misheard words of the day:

Me: baca tu je ke?
Qistina: baja?

Atiyah: Semalam aku ada nightmare.
Qistina: naik van?
Atiyah: nightmare
Qistina: naik van?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA


There is this guy that I've liked for months,
and yesterday was the first time I saw his facebook profile.
It was private before so I couldn't really find out much about him..
but then came timeline and changed all his privacy settings.
MUAHAHA

He looks like a sweet guy :)
There's literally a picture of him kissing his mum on the cheek.
awwwwwwww

what better way to know a guy then by looking at how he treats his mother right?

He doesn't go to my school, but I'm glad for that.
try paying attention when you keep seeing the person who paralyses you with one glance.
ok, I'm overeacting.

You know what I think?
I think that after exam time (Those leftover minutes after you've completed your paper)
its the best time to just think and readjust your life.
my mind was going back to form 1 when I finished my English paper just now.
everything that didn't make sense then, made sense now.
Oh oh, here I go talking crap you probably wouldn't understand again.

btw, I'm terribly sad Robin can't have kids :(
"Its different not wanting something, than being told you can't have it"
such true words.
and the way Ted tried to cheer her up despite not even knowing why she's upset
with the AC/DC song was just so sweet!

Malaysian exams

so, were having our finals now. Hahahahah
sorry, couldn't help laughing.
anyway, we just finished 3 papers. another 18 papers to go. yay?
apalah macamana saya tak tumbuh jerawat dengan stress sebanyak ini.
tahukah anda bahawa stress adalah punca 99.9% penyakit?
kerajaan, apa ni?!
hahaha, I'm kidding. I mean, I don't wanna go to jail.
or do I....?

oh, here are some misheard words of the day:

Atiyah: Kita tak suka mee kari dia.
Fatin: Awak tak suka pinggan dia?

fatin: semua nak.
Mimi: Somona?

and here is a fine example of how similarities can bring people together.

the one in the blue box is me.
I covered my username so Atiyah can't stalk what I watch on youtube :)
(click to enlarge)

 I love this.

This is the colour scheme for when I paint my room.
Its gonna be horizontal stripes of harmonic green colours :)

dah tu je kot.
I'm gonna go get ready to fail my add math exam tomorrow.
wish me luck.
wait.. don't.
what?

Visiting Norway and crying.

I have no idea why, but yesterday I dreamt that we were going to Norway.
I was unimaginably happy that I was crying in my dream.
the second I woke up and realised the harsh reality, I cried again.
I told you, I don't know why. I just did.
now I want to go to Norway SO BAD!

then, I watched LOTR: return of the king, again
let's just say I lost count at how many times I cried.
If I'm not mistaken, it was nearly around 7 or 8.

let me just recall the moments or scenes of which I cried (in no particular order)

-"look highly upon me if I shall return"
  "that depends on the manner of which you return"

-"My friends, you bow to no one"

-"I can't carry it for you Mr.Frodo, but I can carry you!"

-"Don't leave me Mr.Frodo, don't go where I can't follow"

-"I'm not hungry"
 "sam..."

Then there's the last scene where Frodo gets on the boat with Bilbo and Gandalf.
Gandalf says:

"here comes the end of our fellowship"

*commence never ending crying and deep feeling of emptiness filling up your soul as the credits star rolling.

THE END

Back in England...

ok, so a few years back Syafiqah, Sabrina and Balqees was in this
school play when we lived in Oxford.
They had to sing this song in the play.

I grew up with this song. Sabrina and syafiqah sang this all the time when we were young.
I could remember when I was 4, Sabrina sang this while I was colouring some colourbooks.
It's officially our family song.
Do other families have an official song? no. haha
here, take a piece out of our nostalgic memories:

Pack up your troubles in an old kit bag and smile! smile! smile!

Oh, and mum got her Graduation Robe from Oxford University.
She graduated 16 years ago, but its never too late to put it on and feel proud.

I think that she really misses England, although she doesn't really portray it, I know her.

She told me that she had this friend, Ian Polkinghorne (I found him on facebook :0 ) give her a book on Oxford, or something like that and she said:
"I could never afford to go here"

well, we lived there long enough for me to be born there.

Shairah Stallone Mazli

before you read, please take note that I kind of mix a lot of things in here.
I could be talking about one thing, then I'll jump to a whole different topic.
sorry bout that :/

so, lets start with these messages:

shairah, take a "reaction video" of yourself watching porn. hehehe

another one:

So anyway, I watched two movies this week. 

"Looper" and "Hotel Transylvania"

(Did I mention I'm having my finals this friday?)

Looper was awesome!! 

but the ending was........

Hotel Transylvania wasn't really entertaining for me,

probably because its a kids movie.

but Adam Sandler's rap at the end was epic!

ok, so I have this cup,

and I thought, "Sylvester, are you lonely? do you need a friend?"
and in a dream he appeared, his hands in fists, a bloody and busted lip, his eyes watery and weary.
"yes, my queen. I would love that" (ok, that's just weird)
so anyway, I bought him a friend.
Li, meet Stallone. Stallone, meet Li.

So in the movie theatre, the trailer for "The Hobbit" came on screen.

the first thing I did was I fist pumped the air like a mothertruckin boss.

I just couldn't restrain myself.

you know, other than owning a horse and being in the olympics, 

one of my life dreams is to ride alongside Aragon, Legolas, Gimli and Gandalf. 

we would just ride for hours and hours from Gondor to Mordor and back.

My sister bought this for me. It says "success, Money, Hapiness"

and there's also a cantering horse. Isn't it lovely :)

ehemm.. MAYBE FOR MY BIRTHDAY YOU COULD BUY SOMETHING LIKE THIS I'M NOT FORCING YOU BUT IT WOULD BE NICE TO HAVE SOMETHING LIKE THIS.

well now, I'm gonna go "study" some "subjects". 

replace "study" with smoke, and "subjects" with weed.

haha I'm kidding. don't do that....

Mishearing everything

If you're close to us,

you'll know that we (qistina and Fatin in particular) have hearing problems.

Diorang memang selalu tersilap dengar.

Me: Qistina, bagi tangan jap

Qistana: pemadam?

Me: Ya Allah..

Me: Fatin, bagi tangan awak jap.

Fatin: pembaris?

Me: Astaghfirullahalazim! habis lah kita semua.

I just wanted to see their hands...

but they gave me stationary instead..

haha, yang terbaru ni, Atiyah.

but I guess her mishearing was acceptable because the words sound the same.

*me telling a story about this cute guy from our school.

Me: So, I just finished my horse riding lesson and I saw him at the 

pasar ramadhan! he was staring at my boots.

Atiyah: *mouth wide opened* HIDAYAH!!

Me: huh, asal?......

       OMG!! I said BOOTS Atiyah, BOOTS!

My top favourite misheard words from Qistina:

Me: aku pernah tuisyen dengan Nadrah

Qistina: kau suka Nadrah?!

Me: wei, nak cermin kau jap.

Qistina: jerawat?

Me: wei, pinjam cermin jap.

Qistina: condom?

Me: Qistina, asal kau tinggi sangat ni?

Qistina: Mati?

Merry from the Shire

First of all, I want to admit that I am such an idiot.

I was such an idiot for not noticing or realising it before.

Its been, what? 8 years since 'Lost' was aired,

and 2 years since Eminem's "love the way you lie" came out on youtube.

and I didn't realise then that Merry was in it?? 

He's Charlie in 'Lost' and the abusive boyfriend from
Eminem ft. Rihanna- Love the way you lie music video.

gaah, I was so blind.

I knew he looked familiar..

                                                     

I didn't recognise him without the curly hair!!

So after my discovery, I told my family over dinner.

Balqees ofcourse being the slow one (LOL) came with this response...
"wait, in the music video? as a human or a hobbit?"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
We were laughing like hell!!

Then Syafiqah posted the conversation on Facebook.
one of her friends commented:

(click to enlarge)

He's still green about the fictious world of fiction.
Oh my gosh, this is hilarious :D

I'm not even sure  there are any dwarves in Harry Potter..

I know you're thinking about prof. Flitwick but sorry, he's half goblin half wizard 

so it doesn't count :P

haha, I can't stop laughing!

It would be great if Lord of the rings and the world of Harry Potter intertwined though... 

( insert witty title here )

I talked to the Mr.Terry Teo!
LOL, I don't know why I was so excited when I talked to him.
Probably because I totally ADORE him! :)
well, for those who don't know, Mr.Terry is the founder of DARC.
without his dream and love for horses, I probably wouldn't know what a canter felt like.
(Spoiler for non-horse riders: The canter feels like flying through heaven!)

so, anyway me and Mimi were discussing of starting a band wich I doubt will ever work out :/
or in Atiyah's words: "Not gonna happen"

I would be the saxophonist,
Mimi the Violinist,
Sarah the Pianist,
Shairah the drummer,
Atiyah the guitarist and the bass and singer.(She doesn't play either instruments)


our band would be named after something smart which we learnt in class.
ex. of band names include:

The Dark Reaction - from Biology
Angels of depression- from modern maths (altered from "angles" of depression)


HAHAHAHAHAHA
haaaaaa....I guess Atiyah was right.
not gonna happen.

lately me, my mum and sisters have been discussing the topic of "marriage" a lot lately.
Its been really annoying.
Its like Pride & Prejudice in real life.
a tale of a mother desperately trying to marry off her daughters. LOL

what else should I write about?
hmmmm....
oh, I rode "Space u8" and "Denai Alam" this week.

Denai Alam has a legen- WAIT FOR IT - dary! canter. I was going really fast and I felt so comfortable. kinds of reminds me of the description for nandos' chocolate cake.
next time you go to nandos', read the description for their "light chocolate cake" on the menu :)

Space u was cool too.
he was great at the trot.
but he kept getting off at the wrong lead at the canter which bugs me because I don't know how to correct him :/






















space u!